The urge to travel: thats what has been eating into my peace lately. This urgency to leave the place I'm in. Something just seems to be ticking inside me and I'm unable to stop the overwhelming feeling of packing my bags and just leave. I want to say "I see you" to myself. I want to just go on in this journey of discovery of "What do I need? & Who am I?". I think I need security & family but then that doesn't seem to be able stop the gnawing inside that says " Don't try to force something that I can't adapt to, the time is gone for bonding, it's time to just embrace the world and leave what I fancied would be something that I ought to be" . I'm no home maker, I'm no Home bound girl, I TRIED ,OH HOW I TRIED BUT I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO BE WHAT I'M NOT.
Family expectations go beyond my capacity to give. I would rather I could be what I'm not to them, but Somethings can't be changed, something that is carved into me like the very breath that I take to Live. What I'm doing is conventionalty but what I'm is non-conventional. I would like to bury the "I" in me and become one with all but the "I" in me keep calling out and refuse to die out. It's not lack of trying, I have tried since school but even if you strip an eagle of it's skin and put a sparrow's feathers to it, an eagle won't change it's nature to Fly above the skies and against the storm. A sparrow would be much more content with the hearth but a Bird that is made for freedom and independence wants more. A sparrow may aim to fly higher than the clouds but it can still stay happy chirping around the trees yet an eagle knows not what happiness is unless soaring above the clouds free . "Freedom" I need that, "Acceptance" I need that, but I guess that the acceptance I'm wisihing for is more yet freedom is what I NEED in my very soul.
I LET ME LOSE SO MANY TIMES OVER , NOW I JUST NEED TO SOAR. I wish I could be more to you yet I die every day slowly trying to be what I'm not. So heres to freedom at last! I'm taking the plunge.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Monday, March 22, 2010
Luck ,Coincidence & Faith
"My Heart Is Afraid that it will have to suffer," the boy told the alchemist one night as they looked up at the moonless sky."Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams."
Friday, March 19, 2010
Live-In to be Legal ?
Yellows, greens and blues! Beautiful colours. But which one is the best?
So in the same note, is it ok to live in or is it Not ? Are you one of those who believes a live-in relationship makes the couple get to know each other better before they make that final commitment? Or one of those who thinks that the get-married and then get to know each other phase is more safe and also right from the religious point of view. Conventional or Non-conventional is the question, yet what defines it?
We are stuck in the middle of a modern and a conservative culture. On one hand we have the Kamasutra, the Yoga postures enabling better sexual pleasures and wokshipping the Phallynx symbol of a man & woman's sexual organ as Gods. On the other hand we have the modesty, the discipline, the abstinence and all that right things according to the modern religion that constitutes the Indian Culture now per say. Be it Hindu, Muslim , Christian, Budhist or Parsi, In India we all adhere to certain doctrines that defines where to draw a line and leave us to decide the rest.
There is a fine line that divides the Erotica & Vulgarity, Right & Wrong and Culture & Lack of it. History tells us about the concubines, mistresses, durbar dancers, Famous Prostitutes like Umrao jaan,& Paakizaa, all of it spinning stories of our culture. Today the difference is that a concubine & a mistress has been given a name "Girl Friend" or " Fiancee" , a much more legalised word that elevates the status of a woman in the society instead of looking at her as just a sexual partner. The right or option to become a wife instead of staying without a name is exercised. The same can be said for men today since it's the era of gender equality , the new "boyfriend" is an elevated name for a 'Gigolo' , this may offend many men ofcourse but that's just history and today it's a different ballgame altogether.
Today's culture is a welcome relief to both the genders because of the freedom it lets us exercise, and still hold a respectable place in society. Yet a couple who opt for a Live-in is still penalised under the Indian Law and can be booked under Immoral trafficking which is quite degrading but that's how it is. Our government won't get rid of the Red streets, the illegal prostitution, the corrupt nature of the Law enforcement handling Women's right issues, the cyber crimes of videographing any women or man without their permission. The least that can be done is to let the Live-in couple have a clear conscience & register somewhere for contractual living just like we enlist our name for a new car or a phone until the final binding of Marriage. Maybe it's thinking in its extremity but it's better than being persecuted. Or lets' say it's better to except that the new generation is going to have their way so why not let the new era of modern living be welcomed with a much more open-mindedness and a little more respect & understanding of why it has reached to this stage of freeliving.
I peek into the minds of such couple and that of the modernists and know that past failures of a longterm relationships are being compensated by having a present new short term failed relationships. It's a Cycle , everything is bieng tested and hypothesised and inference of the experimental relationships are noted for further successes in the new ones. So it's not a bad experiment maybe because we learn and we learn some more, and we stand the chance of becoming a philosopher with a succesful relationship at longlast.
Divorce : that word has entered our culture stealthily and It is here to stay too. It is a word that gives freedom to choose, the power of choice to a man & a woman to be happy or unhappy in a relationship. So inorder to avoid the legal hazards of a divorce, the new word "Live -In " is creeping in slowly and in some more time we may have a new law that legalises it too just like the decriminalisation of Homosexuality. We are progressing into a new era " Kal Yug" as the ancients call it. We don't know if we are Progressing or Regressing, yet let's keep an open mind and except the changes, becauase whether we like it or not " When in Rome , Be like the Romans" and "When in the 21st century of Kal Yug, Be like the Kalyugans" or hold your ground to those values and be ready to face the consequences of being Outcasted.
The Cycle has to keep moving , whether we like it or not...
So in the same note, is it ok to live in or is it Not ? Are you one of those who believes a live-in relationship makes the couple get to know each other better before they make that final commitment? Or one of those who thinks that the get-married and then get to know each other phase is more safe and also right from the religious point of view. Conventional or Non-conventional is the question, yet what defines it?
We are stuck in the middle of a modern and a conservative culture. On one hand we have the Kamasutra, the Yoga postures enabling better sexual pleasures and wokshipping the Phallynx symbol of a man & woman's sexual organ as Gods. On the other hand we have the modesty, the discipline, the abstinence and all that right things according to the modern religion that constitutes the Indian Culture now per say. Be it Hindu, Muslim , Christian, Budhist or Parsi, In India we all adhere to certain doctrines that defines where to draw a line and leave us to decide the rest.
There is a fine line that divides the Erotica & Vulgarity, Right & Wrong and Culture & Lack of it. History tells us about the concubines, mistresses, durbar dancers, Famous Prostitutes like Umrao jaan,& Paakizaa, all of it spinning stories of our culture. Today the difference is that a concubine & a mistress has been given a name "Girl Friend" or " Fiancee" , a much more legalised word that elevates the status of a woman in the society instead of looking at her as just a sexual partner. The right or option to become a wife instead of staying without a name is exercised. The same can be said for men today since it's the era of gender equality , the new "boyfriend" is an elevated name for a 'Gigolo' , this may offend many men ofcourse but that's just history and today it's a different ballgame altogether.
Today's culture is a welcome relief to both the genders because of the freedom it lets us exercise, and still hold a respectable place in society. Yet a couple who opt for a Live-in is still penalised under the Indian Law and can be booked under Immoral trafficking which is quite degrading but that's how it is. Our government won't get rid of the Red streets, the illegal prostitution, the corrupt nature of the Law enforcement handling Women's right issues, the cyber crimes of videographing any women or man without their permission. The least that can be done is to let the Live-in couple have a clear conscience & register somewhere for contractual living just like we enlist our name for a new car or a phone until the final binding of Marriage. Maybe it's thinking in its extremity but it's better than being persecuted. Or lets' say it's better to except that the new generation is going to have their way so why not let the new era of modern living be welcomed with a much more open-mindedness and a little more respect & understanding of why it has reached to this stage of freeliving.
I peek into the minds of such couple and that of the modernists and know that past failures of a longterm relationships are being compensated by having a present new short term failed relationships. It's a Cycle , everything is bieng tested and hypothesised and inference of the experimental relationships are noted for further successes in the new ones. So it's not a bad experiment maybe because we learn and we learn some more, and we stand the chance of becoming a philosopher with a succesful relationship at longlast.
Divorce : that word has entered our culture stealthily and It is here to stay too. It is a word that gives freedom to choose, the power of choice to a man & a woman to be happy or unhappy in a relationship. So inorder to avoid the legal hazards of a divorce, the new word "Live -In " is creeping in slowly and in some more time we may have a new law that legalises it too just like the decriminalisation of Homosexuality. We are progressing into a new era " Kal Yug" as the ancients call it. We don't know if we are Progressing or Regressing, yet let's keep an open mind and except the changes, becauase whether we like it or not " When in Rome , Be like the Romans" and "When in the 21st century of Kal Yug, Be like the Kalyugans" or hold your ground to those values and be ready to face the consequences of being Outcasted.
The Cycle has to keep moving , whether we like it or not...
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